Tuesday, April 16, 2013


I never thought I could be so happy to receive a lame keychain, but there I was, standing at the scale crossing my fingers. And I did it! 10% exactly and a 3.6 pound loss for the week. Yay!!

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Still here, still planning to blog!!

I am finally in a place where I think I can contribute to this blog again.  I would be grateful if some of you stuck around to watch me come back to health after this past year of hell.  I'm still upset about the photos on this blog and I'm not sure what I'll do about it yet.  I don't know if I should just leave as is, remove the error messages, or reupload the photos.  Thinking about it.

To update you, I placed second in my Biggest Loser Contest and won myself $110!  I feel proud of my accomplishment and had it not been for someone's extreme measures in the final weeks, I would have taken first place.  I feel like I actually won anyway.  That's the thing about weight loss contests that I feel strongly about.  It's not about extremes, like laxatives or starving yourself, it's about changing your habits and finding something that works. I did what I did and I was consistent.  By the end of the contest, I lost 20 lbs exactly.  The contest was from Jan. 7 to April 1.  I feel good about that!

But now comes the part 2 when I have to find something else to motivate me.  For the time being, I have decided to attend Weight Watchers meetings on Monday evenings right after work.  It's right on my way home so should be easy to fit in.  It also might have more people I would consider peers than the ol' bitties who attend the prior meeting I tried out.  I am actually looking forward to attending.  Yesterday was the first one I went to and it was a relatively new male leader.  I'm fine with a man in the meeting, some of the women wouldn't weigh with him which I found ridiculous!  But this guy's overall leadership was not that great and I was glad to find out he is only filling in for the regular leader.  He'll be there another week so I commit to attending these meetings until the regular leader returns and I get to know her a little.  It is important to me that the leader is someone relatable and current (read: near my age).  Some of the leaders I've met lost their weight like 20 years ago and that's find for them, but I find it very hard to relate to someone who's way out of my age bracket and lost weight on a totally different program than exists today.  Call me picky!

The theme for the week was to make a change to get active over the next several weeks and earn stickers and have chances to win prizes.  Blah, blah, blah.  All I know is, it's accountability.  So even though I haven't done a lick of exercise yet, I committed to 2x a week on my treadmill.  Starting this week.  Like before the next meeting on Monday.  Like get off the damn couch and get to the treadmill.  I will start with walking.  I want to move up to running again, I really do, but for now I'm going to be content with walking.

So anyway, there's my update.  Oh, and WW has me down 18 pounds which is a difference caused by nude weigh ins first thing in the morning versus weighing in after work (fully clothed) versus going on vacation for a week and possibly not following plan.  I'm okay with a 2 lb discrepency between their scale and my home scale.  I look forward to knocking it out of the park this week and hopefully earning my 10% keychain next week (3-4 lbs).  Gosh darn, I will use that thing!

I hope everyone is doing well.  As always, thank you for supporting me.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Blog Reboot?

I've been thinking about how I want to resurrect this blog, but I think the focus has to be changed.  Clearly this isn't a health and running blog anymore.  And I'm not sure I want it to be.  So I have been thinking a lot about just making this blog about me.  Musings, rants, celebrations and more.

Unfortunately, I am not sure what happened, but it appears that the pictures in my blog have issues.  They are missing. It might have to do with the fact that I changed the ownership and email address of this blog; maybe that ruins the pictures.  I don't know, but I'm quite disappointed.  I don't know what to do.  I'm not very techie or knowledgable when it comes to these things.

In light of this problem, maybe it's just time to abandon this blog and begin anew, or maybe I should just abandon blogging altogether.  I don't know.  I'm asking myself what it's for, is it necessary?  Does it make me happy?  Those are questions for many things. 

Should I do it? 
Does it make me happy?

I'll ponder this.

Friday, March 8, 2013

200.0 2.0

Hi guys!  Long time no post!  But no apologies here, we do what we can do.

But guess what?!  I've lost weight!!  Monday, I weighed in at 200.0!  Strange to feel excited about that number, but it represents a loss of over 15 lbs since January 8 when I strongly recommitted to this health journey of mine.  I feel in control for the first time in quite a long time.

I haven't started exercising yet, but I've thought about it a whole lot.  Doesn't that count?  I want to do it, I just can't get motivated enough to do it.  I'm still in the bad place which makes doing pretty much anything really, really hard.  My mood goes up and down and lately it's been down.  I know it's the time of year so I'm trying not to get too down (pun intended) on myself, but I want to just snap my fingers and be HAPPY!  Is that too much to ask?!  And it's not that I'm not happy, it's that I'm kinda just...flat.  Lately, the anxiety is really getting to me, though.

I have been trying to focus on other things besides health.  Little things, silly things, things that make me happy even though they are quite materialistic.  I know happiness cannot be found in things, but sometimes things do make life a bit better.  Brighter even.

I leave you tonight with a picture of one of my latest bright and fun things, my ultraviolet Coach purse and wallet, a Christmas present from me and my mom to me. :)