Wednesday, October 24, 2012

I couldn't do it!

I received a final email about my blog domain registration expiration and I just couldn't let it go!  So remains.  I cannot give up!

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

I did something stupid yesterday?

Yes, that's a question because I'm still not sure if it was smart or stupid.  I'm leaning towards stupid.

So, all last week, as I tried to eat less and count calories, I was thinking about Weight Watchers.  Yes, it has its faults, but overall it's a sound plan which has been there for me in the past.  It works if you work it (although I'm still not sure that's true for the PointsPlus plan) and it gives you accountability, even if you're only participating online.  I made a to-do list for the week and on it I included the item "Decide if you're joining WW or not!".  I thought about it a lot during the week and over the weekend.  By Sunday night I had pretty much decided, yes, I'm joining.  I had yesterday off and so one of the things I did in the morning was sign up for Weight Watchers Online.  I chose the 3-month savings plan for the low low price of $65.  I felt ready, I felt committed.  Here we go!

Long about 7:30 last night I was wondering WTH I was thinking!  Weight Watchers?  Really?  Again?  Been there, done that!  I celebrated this thought process by indulging in some honey roasted peanuts.  As with anything I have purchased or bought in my life, I assumed Weight Watchers would give me 3 days to really make up my mind or change my mind, as the case may be.  Right before bed, I sat down to cancel my membship and I couldn't see any other option than to do so at the end of the billing period.  Well, I just joined, I thought.  I can cancel and get a refund, it's been less than 12 hours for crying out loud!  So I sent off a pleasant email that I had changed my mind about membership so please cancel and issue a refund.

I was surprised to see that I had an email response from them already when I got up this morning.  I was also surprised by its contents.  It was quite lengthy, but the gist of it was: We'll be happy to cancel your account and keep your money. 

I am quite irritated by this!  Basically my membership can be cancelled at the end of the first prepaid month and out of my $65 payment, I will receive a refund of $16.10.  Yes, $16.10 out of $65!  What irritates me the most is myself, of course.  I read (skimmed) all the disclosures, but I felt like I was committed.  Then later when I felt less committed, I thought for sure I would have 3 days to cancel and get a refund.  When you buy a car, you have 3 days to change your mind!  When you join a gym, you have 3 days to cancel and get a refund.  But apparently, once you sign up for 3 months of WW Online, you're in for at least a month and $48.90!  I'm so stupid!  Aren't I?

I told my coworker my story this morning and she was like, well, I guess you have to use it!  And, she's right, I suppose.  I can't just let $50 go by the wayside.  And since I have until mid-November to cancel for the same amount of refund, I might as well just give it a go and try my hardest to lose some weight! But ugh, it's frustrating because I'm really not committed to using this plan anymore.  And now that they've irritated the heck out of me, I feel much less interested.  But it's my own fault so I must reap what I sow.  And if the consequence is weight loss, then so be it.  :)

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

1,000 Days

I meant to post yesterday, but I'm a day late.  Yesterday was 1,000 days since I started this journey.  No, I haven't been counting, but when I logged my weight on my iPhone app, there it was: 

"Lost 27.0 lbs. in 1000 days"

What it didn't say was lost over 80 pounds and gained over 50 in 1000 days, but that's all I could think about.  1,000 days and I am a measly 27 pounds down from my starting weight.  It is better than being at my starting weight, and it's definitely better than being above my starting weight.  But it still sucks! 27 measly pounds!!!  When I was almost to 85!!!

Again, I sit here lamenting these facts, and I wonder to myself what good does it do?  Answer: none.  It never does any good to dwell on the things you cannot change.  I could have changed it, but I didn't, so now I cannot change it.  I have to accept it and move forward.

Yesterday, I had a good day.  I started the day planning to count calories, but ended up not logging everything.  As I've said before, I know what to eat.  I know exactly how much to eat.  Starting with breakfast and lunch, I tend to eat the same things day after day when I'm "dieting", but that works for me.  So I planned the meals and knew I was on track.  I admit, the evening almost took me down.  My son and husband were at soccer practice and when I got home, I wanted to EAT!  Instead, I made a salad and it tasted pretty good!

I've noticed lately that even foods I love don't taste good.  (Okay, Reese's Peanut Butter Pumpkins always taste good.)  Things like English muffins with peanut butter, Chobani yogurt, fruit....these things have just tasted blah lately.  I'm sure it's because I feel so incredibly gross. There's no other way to describe it.  I feel gross.  Yesterday, after not indulging in a bunch of junk food at the office all day, the salad for dinner tasted good.  And I know the healthy foods will only taste better if I continue my detox from sugar and junk food. 

"Nothing tastes as good as thin feels."  This needs to become my mantra, my motto, my mission statement.  It's one day at a time.  I'm not even focusing on exercise.  Right now, it's just an accomplishment to get through the day without binging on junk food.

But I still can't help remember that I thought I'd never be here again. :(

With all that said, I think I need a change to the blog name.  I've let the domain go, so now it's time to come up with something more fitting.  Perhaps I should go back to my original blog name "All About Me".

Friday, October 5, 2012

Custom Domain No More

I have removed the custom domain from this blog.  In fact, if you're subscribed using the custom domain address, you're probably not even seeing this.  I don't know where this blog is going, if anywhere, but I decided to let the registration of expire.  And I am okay with that.  Regardless of where I go with this is in the future, I don't want to lose the past posts just yet so I plan to keep this blog up for now.