I have looked back at my weight loss over the past three weeks and I have averaged less than a one pound weight loss each week. That's not enough. And when I say not enough, I mean that sucks so bad!
I have officially been back on program for 12 weeks and have lost 27.8 lbs. I am not going to sit here and say that I'm not proud of that. I'm extremely proud of that. I feel great about it, in fact. But I don't want to lose momentum. I still have 57 lbs to lose and I honestly don't feel that I can spend the next 57+ weeks trying to lose it. I know this is not a diet, I know I have to watch what I eat for the rest of my life. But I want to get on with the rest of my life. Losing weight feels like limbo. I've been here before, I've lost weight before. What I haven't done before is reach my goal weight. I am ready to get there. I'm ready for the rest of my life.
In the meantime, however, I have 57 more pounds to lose and I need to figure out how to do that. Of course I want to do it in a healthy maintainable way, but I want it to be quicker than it has been over the past few weeks. So this week I am switchin' it up!
First, I am going to exercise more. I bought a Jillian Michaels DVD last week and it's still wrapped snuggly in its plastic. Well, that plastic is coming off and I'm putting that thing to use. I am continuing with my C25K, of course (completed W7D2 tonight), and will do Jillian's DVD at least once. If it's a good one, I might do it more than once, or add in a couple more days of walking on the treadmill or outside. More cardio = more calorie burn.
Next, I am going to eat more this week. I have pretty much saved all activity points earned each week and usually have a good 15 or so weekly points left. This week I am going to use all weekly points. I started that last night by going to the Olive Garden and enjoying THREE breadsticks, my entire entree of capellini pomodoro AND salad. I did have vinegar and a tiny amount of oil for dressing instead of the OG dressing, but I ate a lot of what was given to me. And I enjoyed the hell out of it.
Last, but not least, I'm going to keep a positive outlook. I am doing very well, I know I am. I am doing everything "right". Even if it doesn't always show on the scale, I know I am succeeding one ounce at a time. And that's what matters in the end!
This week I had also planned on staying away from the scale, but I cancelled that plan tonight when I decided to step on it for a looksee. Tonight's weight, before dinner and before my workout, was the same as yesterday morning, 204.4. I take that as a good sign for the week. Perhaps that is why I had an awesome run tonight! I was a little anxious going into it because my legs, especially my right calf/shin is still tender from last week. It was feeling a lot better, but then it was aggravated again on Monday and has been hurting a bit. Since it felt better today than yesterday, I decided to go forward with the run knowing I could back off if it became too painful. Well, to my surprise it was okay!! At first I kind of felt like I was limping along, and coupled with my left thigh that's been bugging me off and on, I had quite the combo going on. I kept wondering if I was trotting or running. But about a minute into it I raised the incline to 1.0 and it felt so much better!! The impact is reduced on the incline settings. I kept the speed at 4.5 until about 20 minutes and then lowered it to 4.4 during the last 5. I think lowering it made me feel better mentally so it's all good. I finished and it was great!
I have been talking more and more with people about running. At first I didn't want to say much because although everyone knew I was losing weight because of the contest, I was too self conscious to really discuss it. I guess I feel like when you talk about your weight and/or exercising, people really start to scrutinize how you look. I don't want scrutiny. But now that my confidence level has risen, I am okay with talking about it more, and that feels good. I like saying that I am running. I can't wait to say that I am a runner. I don't know when I'll feel like I can say that, but I know I will say it someday. And that is exciting!!